Daily, morning and evening; or on rising and on going to rest, go aside into a retired and quiet place, and then turned
to God in soul and body,say:
"Almighty and everlasting God, my creator, my saviour and Lord Jesus Christ, I am that
sinner, of all the blackest, lowest and most detestable: wholly contemptible and wicked am I; who so oft and so deeply have
dishonoured thy majesty. I have gone from the way of the commandments: thy goodness, holiness and love have I offended, turning
away my face from Thee, my Lord. [Such and such] sins have I committed: I have sinned by omission in many things and oft:
I have turned thine own gifts against Thee."
Then call to mind some of thy more grievous sins of which thy conscience
doth accuse thee; over which too, as in deed over all in general, thou dost heartily sigh, fetching groans and striking thy
breast in repentance; and (should God so give thee grace) shedding bitter tears as well.
Kneeling then, or lying prone
with joined hands, or with arms outstretched in the form of a cross, pray God for full pardon of all thy sins, saying thus:
"Most
merciful God, lovable all things, the goal of all holy desires and infintely sweet; out of the depths of thy bounty, thy
love and thy kindness: by all Thou hast done and suffered for my salvation: at the intercession of the Blessed Mary ever virgin
and the merits and prayers of all thy saints; grant thy pardon to me an unworthy great sinner. Fill me with the bounty of
Thy grace, that for the future I may keep away from sin, and flee from what displeaseth Thee, nor ever again turn my thoughts
away from Thee."
After this, in like manner think on the blessings, general and special, God hath conferred on thee,
and say thus:
"Almighty and everlasting God, my Lord Jesus Christ, infinite and immeasurable are the benefits Thou
hast conferred on me. Thou hast created me to Thine image and likeness. Not with the common herd of creation hast Thou placed
me, but Thou hast endowed me with reason. Thou hast given me body and soul, mind and senses, and all the rest of nature's
gifts. Thou hast not left me from childhood in the shadows of ignorance, but hast given me schooling and taught me, that I
might be thy faithful servant. And when I fell into sin Thou didst pardon me, as Thou dost to this day, though many who have
sinned less than I, have been lost eternally. Thou hast given me the spiritual goods of church-membership; and whatsoever
good there may be in me and that I may have, I know to be thy gift. Moreover, for my sake Thou didst become man and didst
dwell in this world in the deepest depths of poverty; Thou didst suffer persecution and wast tempted, didst suffer scorn:
and with all patience, lowliness, obedience, meekness, and with the perfection of love and holiness. And at the end, Thou
didst suffer a most cruel death for me. Thou wast weighed down and afflicted; Thou wast "sorrowful even unto death", didst
sweat blood, wast taken prisoner, struck, spit upon, blindfolded and clad as a fool in a white garment and a purple cloak.
They crowned The with thorns and struck with a reed. Thy blessed face was all bathed in blood: Thou wast torn with scourges
and didst suffer contempt, derision and blasphemy. Thou wast condemned to an awful death and wast led forth to the place of
execution with the cross on Thine own shoulders. Hands and feet they pierced with sharp nails and "reputed amongst the wicked"
Thou didst hang between two thieves. They gave thee gall and vinegar to drink, pierced Thee with a lance and thus brought
Thee to a bitter end. Yet more; Thou hast purchased for me the Kingdom of Heaven and promised it to me. And I, graceless and
vile sinner that I am, have paid Thee back ingratitude for such favours, rendering evil for good and turning my back on Thee.
Yea, so ungrateful and perverse am I become, that it were meet for the world and all that is in it to rise up against me,
and wreak vengeance on me for my injuries to my Creator."
"But now, o my Lord Jesus Christ, by thy holy Incarnation,
by thy most holy life amongst us, by the passion, thy cross, and thy blood; I beseech Thee, pardon me all my wrong-doing and
ingratitude, and for the rest of my life make me daily to grow in devotion and gratitude towards Thee." Amen.
The foregoing
belongeth to the purgative way, which must precede the illuminative and perfect ways. First of all then, the beginner should exercise
himself for some months in this exercise of the purgative way.
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